Finally, Hapiness.

Well I must say, this is not bitter blogging, although this post might relate to one of the posts here in my blog. If you remember back, in my previous posts, I mentioned that I wanted a new phone, an iPhone specifically, and that I had fought with both my Mom and my Dad?

So I am marking this as a "Stain of Life" post because it is already stained in my heart that my Dad...
IS GETTING A NEW PHONE FOR ME!! YEAHHHH!!

It's kind of a happy feeling, although not bitter, it still affects me in a happy way. =)

So yeah, THANKS DAD! For getting me a new phone! Sorry for everything that I have done and sorry for the fights we've been through just because I'm not patient with you. I guess Mom was right, you have to be patient in everything. Sorry if I raised my voice at you, sorry for all the mistakes I did trying to prove you wrong. I'll never let you down.





I'll accept anything that you're planning to get me, just thanks for knowing now that I needed a new phone. I LOVE YOU. MOM TOO.

HAPPY TIME! Bitter Blogging? Nah, this time it's AWESOMENESS BLOGGNG!

Written: Saturday, 31st December 2011, 11.15PM, Malaysian Time.
P/S: The date and time is for my reference only.
P/S: It's a 4s! An iPhone 4s! =)

Final Exams & Stress.

DAMN! The FE's (Final Exams) are near and I have not even studied yet! What a rough time for this second semester. Christmas had just passed and I am being fed with tons of work, including assignments, especially the Sport Science assignment. It's a group assignment tho, so its a little bit lighter to work with. But still, SHIIITTT!!

Know why? Because the lecturer gave us this work at nearly Christmas, or so as to say during Christmas week! DAMN! The happiness of this festive season and the Christmas Spirit in me turned around like a horse or buffalos herding violently. The feeling of happiness was outweighed by the feeling of needing to finish work during Christmas week. Argh!

Still, I have no idea where to put my time to study for my FE's. WHAT A MONSTER that these foundation works can do to us! PURE EVIL! Oh, and I still haven't done my Moral Presentation yet because guess what? Mine was postponed from week 12 of the 4 months study to week 14, which is this week, and I only returned to UTP on Thursday! Good griefs! I MISSED MY 14 MARKS WORTH OF PRESENTATION!

So now, during this moment when I am writing, I got like 4 things up in my mind:

1. Finish up Sport Science Group Assignment, due 31st December 2011.
2. Physical Fitness Test, also due 31st December 2011.
3. Moral Presentation, final chance on Tuesday, 3rd January 2012.
4. Final Exam, starting 5th January 2012 till 10th January 2012.

Ughh, what stress and peer pressure is put on me these few weeks! If it wasn't for my close friend, Avinash Kumar, I wouldn't have my final chance to finish up my Moral Presentation. THANKS ALOT BRO! =)



So yeah, I hope everything will go well and I hope that I can make my own time for my FE studies. 3.5's all the way!

New Year's is close too, and I'm celebrating it with my friends here in UTP. Possibly drinks will be the attraction to our celebration. One thing's for sure though, I'm sad that I can't celebrate this year's New Year with my family. Believe it or not, it's also my first time not celebrating it with my family. =(

Well, let me just hope that everything goes well.

Written: Thursday, 30th December 2011, 9.00PM, Malaysian Time.
P/S: The date and time is for my reference only.
P/S: Halfway done through my Sport Science Assignment. (During the time of writing).
P/S: STILL STRESSED!! X.X

Life.

Well, I guess this is the first post. So here goes.

This happened to be a day before my flight departure to KL on the 29th, to be exact, it happened on the 28th. Cause of it? I'm not exactly sure what caused it but I may think it's because I wanted something for a very long time already - an iPhone. Yeah, as a teenager you would want all those intense, electrifying and most probably the ultimate gadget on your hands, but this was different, I had wanted this gadget since the first release, and now its already the fifth release. So, make that like, 4 years? Give or take. So yeah, as usual, I had my old gadget on my hands, the Nokia E52, superb phone I would say. But it's time. It's been short-circuiting every time I try to type a message, make a call or worse, pick up a phone call. So yeah, I thought to myself I needed a new change of my phone.

This actually happened a long 8 months back, although not serious. Since I'm now in university, I thought that everything had to be new. Yeah, I got a new Macbook Pro, which was awesome but I still missed something. A phone that is. So after a few weeks of torture using my old trusty Nokia E52, I couldn't take it. When I went back to Labuan for my Mid-Semester break, I asked my Dad for a new phone. Guess what? He said that he will think about it when we get home. So I waited and been patient until we got home, and then I asked again, but this time, the answer was a direct "NO". Oh how painful to hear those words come out from my Dad that day I asked. So then I waited, until the 28th of December, where I couldn't take it anymore.

"The tailor is not my problem right now!", I yelled to my Mom.
"Then what is?", she asked.
"I can't withdraw any money from my ASB! Today is really spoiled!", I yelled back.
"Why would you want to withdraw money from your ASB?", Mom queried.

Ok, the story behind that line goes like this. I rarely ask things from my Dad because every time I do, he would say no. So what I did was, I made up my own conclusion that I would use my own money in the future to buy myself some goodies. I was so sick to hear all my requests being denied by my Dad. He never thought of the outcome. He never did think why I needed those things. He never thought what use would it bring to me. So yeah. I had to.

"Because there is no point in asking PAPA for stuffs. He never gives them!", I yelled. Plus, that time my younger brother was sitting in the back seat.
"What do you actually want?", again, Mom asked.
"A handphone! I've been asking PAPA for a new phone and he never bought me one! Since last semester!", like a brat, I yelled.

And so the story goes on, fighting and fighting with my Mom in the car. Arguing about this and that about life in the car. The whole car was filled with anger and stress. I know I'm already a university student and it shouldn't happen, but I just couldn't take it anymore. Tired of waiting. Tired of using a near screwed up phone.

"Just relax, I will talk to PAPA tonight and see what he will say later on. If you don't know what to do anymore and you cannot talk to PAPA already, you tell me and I will tell it to PAPA.", Mom replied confidently.

I was silent. That gave me a little hope that I could get a phone. But I never knew more stuff would happen the next day. Real stupid stuffs.

It was the next morning on the 29th, a few hours before my flight, I entered the car with my Dad alone. We were going back to our original home, from the weekend home. And then in the car...

"What is wrong with your phone?", Dad asked.

Of course, after months of kept grudge on my Dad for not getting me a new phone, he popped the question which I already told him LONG ago when I wanted to get a new phone. As if he didn't listen to my reasons before. Oh, wait. He never did. So then more fights started until we reached home. Where more fights continued. It was really really miserable for me to be put in a situation like that. Tied up, knotted and didin't know what to do. How stained my life was.

Luckily the fights stopped in time for me to get ready for my flight to KL. Mom sent me to the airport alone, Dad wasn't there, he left because he couldn't take the fights anymore. Not until I left the car and went up to the departure hall, then my mom texted me. The texts went on until I reached KL Sentral.







Honestly, with all those nagging, fights and conflicts, I still love my parents. Mom and Dad in equal. I LOVE YOU GUYS.
And at this moment, I am sitting in KL Sentral's KFC waiting for my train back to UTP at 5.35PM, when I wrote this.

Written: Thursday, 29th December 2011, 4.25PM, Malaysian Time.
P/S: The date and time is for my reference only.

Here goes...

Well, once again I'm here more miserable than ever, creating a blog that no one knows. Main purpose? Title explains all.

Sometimes in life, stupid things happen and to remember them, it's best that you write them down. Thats why I created this blog. To write down every single bitter moment that happened or crossed my life and caused conflicts.

When time comes, when I see these posts, I'll remember what my childhood experiences were and probably laugh at those times where I used to be stupid. Well, who knows, some might even be there to read these posts of mine. We'll see in time.

So, yeah, again and again creating blogs that always ends up being cast aside, I really hope this will be the most updated blog of mine ever. Since I'm turning 19 in just weeks, I might as well find this as a good reason to start me writing. Hope it all goes well.


Blog Created: Thursday, 29th December 2011, 9.15AM, Malaysian Time.
P/S: "Blog Created" reminder is just for my reference.